Indianapolis........woooo

ha i kinda look a wee bit retarded.

This is a gypsy I encountered in my travels. She's blind so I bought her dinner and walked her home in the cold. She gave me a vile of her cum for good luck. God Bless you Gypsy Rosa Lee!



Hey ya'll, so this trip started getting a little better.
I cant believe I'm just wrapping up my second week. I seriously feel like I've been gone for years. Its been the craziest experience. But at least i made a friend. His name is Jeremy and i wanna give my boo a lil shout out......HEY GURL!!!!
If it wasn't for him I'd probably kill myself....and I'd be thin, but any who, he's great.

So, Indianapolis is kind of a bust. I went to this porn shop called Cirillas. It was a classy joint. The ladies working there were these classy broads with high heels and high-waist Ann Taylor Loft lady slacks. But the gay section was pretty ridic, there were only like 15 gay movies total, .....watev. But, they did have some of the classics such as: "Tender Twin Twinks", "Butt-Crack Mountain", and my fave "Crazy for Cornholing!"(which I obviously purchased)
Also, Indianapolis held a lot of firsts for me. I got to drive around in snow for the first time. ANNNNNNDDDDDD I got to try White Castle for the first time. Mmmmmm it was pretty good. But this place called Steak n' Shake is the bomb. Best shakes ever. I documented my White Castle experience.(chu can see it above)

I'm only writing one blog in Indianapolis cuz its snoozefest 2009 ova here. There's really nothing to talk about. I bought one of those Iron gyms that you can hook up to any doorway. Its still in its box but i feel like any day now its comin out.

Omg so I'm watching American Idol and i really feel like i can be on this show....wait...no......... no i cant. Ha I'm sure they'd say that I'm too musical theater. ugh.

I'm pretty sure this time apart from everyone has already changed me. I'm not afraid to be alone anymore. I've gotten used to myself and I am, for the first time, starting to truly accept the kind of person I am. I'm acknowledging all my flaws and fears and characteristics, its nice. I was too busy focusing on others and insignificant shit to ever notice me.
I am a little nervous about all the relationships that i have back home. But, I believe that if I am meant to stay friends with the people I truly consider friends then I have nothing to worry about. I usually never go this deep into any of my thoughts but since all I have is time for thought, this is what ya'll get.

I really miss my mom. I miss my little sisters raspy voice. I miss my granny's go with the flow attitude and home cooking. I miss my best friends being there for me whenever I needed them.
ugh I'm gonna cry now.

last days in milwaukee

God bless Tara's heart for not falling....too hard.

Snowman cum.

Douche tourist!

My sanctuary. Only Mexican place in town.

I really like Milwaukee. It's just a really nice town where it snows a lot and all the towns folk are chatty Kathy's. So, I had lunch at Applebees today for the first time by myself. It was kinda good, kinda ghetto. I felt like they were trying to be TGI FRIDAYS but it just wasn't happenin for me. I LOVE TGI FRIDAYS!!!

ha i like making the Fridays red. Any who, this cold weather is surprisingly to wonders to my skin. It's always so tight and smooth.

UGHHHH I'M BOOOOORREEEDDDDDD!!!

I'm so lonely. None of the cast or crew ask me to hang out and they all have their own cliques and shit. But i guess its because I'm only 20. A lot of them don't know yet but Tara told a few of them. I'm gonna have to spill the chili beans soon though cause they keep asking me to go to bars and I'm just like "ummmm...paperwork..ummm sorry cant!"

I feel vulnerable all the time. In LA I got really good at cluttering my life with friends and responsibilities but i cant do that here. My job is super easy and all I want to do all the time is eat. I tried working out last night but then i just ordered a medium pizza. Ugh and i don't have a fridge so I have to eat all of it or it'll go bad. I'm a mess.

But, other than all that negative stuff, I'm pretty OK. ha

my booth!

first entry!

Sooooo I'm in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.
It's a trip! I've never really seen snow before so to be completely surrounded by it has just been incredible. I love it here. I'm staying at the Hyatt and mama has her very own KING size bed. It's very comfy but its too big. I already feel really lonely. I miss all of my friends and my fam. But, I am having a blast. My great friend Tara is out here training me and she has been spoiling me. She bought me an amazing dinner last night and today she treated me to a fabulous German lunch and she bought me a block of sharp cheddar cheese. (Wisconsin is known for their cheese......fyi) But any who, last night was my first night working. I didn't get to see the show yet but I did get to meet all of the cast and crew at the opening night cast party. Everyone is super nice and I got to meet Gary Marshall(director of "Pretty Woman" and "Princess Diaries" and had a small cameo in "Hocus Pocus" as the devil......hes huge). So far, everything has been great. Tara and I are going ice skating tomorrow so I'm really looking forward to that. But like I said, I can tell this is going to be a really lonely trip papi. I love you all and thank you sooooo much Diego for setting this up for me. You are absolutely the bestest friend a lonely single working gal in Milwaukee can have.
PEACE!

on the road again