God bless Tara's heart for not falling....too hard.
Snowman cum.
Douche tourist!
My sanctuary. Only Mexican place in town.
I really like Milwaukee. It's just a really nice town where it snows a lot and all the towns folk are chatty Kathy's. So, I had lunch at Applebees today for the first time by myself. It was kinda good, kinda ghetto. I felt like they were trying to be TGI FRIDAYS but it just wasn't happenin for me. I LOVE TGI FRIDAYS!!!
ha i like making the Fridays red. Any who, this cold weather is surprisingly to wonders to my skin. It's always so tight and smooth.
UGHHHH I'M BOOOOORREEEDDDDDD!!!
I'm so lonely. None of the cast or crew ask me to hang out and they all have their own cliques and shit. But i guess its because I'm only 20. A lot of them don't know yet but Tara told a few of them. I'm gonna have to spill the chili beans soon though cause they keep asking me to go to bars and I'm just like "ummmm...paperwork..ummm sorry cant!"
I feel vulnerable all the time. In LA I got really good at cluttering my life with friends and responsibilities but i cant do that here. My job is super easy and all I want to do all the time is eat. I tried working out last night but then i just ordered a medium pizza. Ugh and i don't have a fridge so I have to eat all of it or it'll go bad. I'm a mess.
But, other than all that negative stuff, I'm pretty OK. ha
I LOVE YOU!!!! I'm sorry you're lonely :( it makes me want to cry knowing you're not completely happy. I'm getting a webcam ASAP so we can have nightly sex chats. HAWT.
ReplyDeleteSend me the dates of where you'll be and when so I can see if i can plan a trip to see my fave mexicano :-)
I miss you... I MISS YOU!!! (Said in Samantha James' voice :-)
It's really fun seeing you post things like this. & Don't let the negative stuff get to you, try as hard as you can to cling on to all of the good.
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Awww Rodi I wish I was there to dump on your chest and make you feel better! It will for sure get better soon though, your just getting started! We miss you, and the end of this summer is going to be fantastic when we have you back to play! KEEP ON KEEPIN ON! MUAHHHH XOXOXOXOX-CUMTITS EK9
ReplyDeleteit makes me smile when you order a pizza instead of working out
ReplyDeleteoh, && that you know you have to eat it all or else it will go bad. mama's proud.
even though your lonely, even though i miss you terribly, and even though your eating for two and your not pregnant, i still trully believe that this is an extremely positive experience for you...you said it yourself, your life isnt cluttered with friends or dire responsibilities. its just you. i think this journey is gonna help you in so many ways, analyze yourself and see and feel who you trully are and what you want to become.
ReplyDeleteso head high diva!
and do let me hear from you soon
i am most fondly and unchangingly yours
fanny gabor.
LOVE YOU.